mood > sad :(
Saturday, 4 February 2012 | 09:10 | 0 comments
assalamualaikum and hai readers :) how are you guys ? fine :) I hope that you guys sihat walafiat :) me? I am sad fine :') so, for this entry I want to share something about my craziest life .
hmmmm bismillahirahmannirahim harap tidak ada yang tersinggung la yerr
so, today I want to share something about my friends . dengan batuk dan selsema yang masih berbaki akibat demam, saya gagah kan juga diri ini untuk membuat entry kali ini sebab dah beberapa kali bertangguh >.< *drama* okay2 .
ehem, okay, I want share something about my friend . her name was M . I know her since we're standard 5 . we be a BFF start that year . OMG imagine it already 5 years :'D I really love her ! she is the best friend ever ! even I had a lots of best friend but she is the closest to me . we use to cry, laugh and do everything together . even we always be the cat and the dog but I still love her . I already assume her as my sister .
I don't why but since we enter 2012, everything is change ! we already separated with my another BFF, A . she also one of my dear :D but we are not longer at the same class :'( so, maybe that is one of the problem .what had happen to me, I'll tell them first ! but since we are not longer a classmate, its really difficult to us to spend time together longer like before :( I'm really sad .
usually, we always make a group at the back of the class and gossiping together but now..? not anymore ! I start feels that we already change ! M is not longer M that I know before . now, she is closest to someone else . yes I admit it that I'm jealous but its that wrong ? I think that it is a normal thing . but~ I don't know -.- now, M is not longer spend time with me . she always with K . omg I feels like .... urghhhh ! I hate to be like this ! imagine when M and K always blaming me and always make me annoying . that is really hurt especially when your true best friend that do that :(
yeah maybe they think that it just a normal joke but for me that is really annoying . especially when the doing that like almost everyday . imagine that I need to embarrassing myself in front of the public. imagine when they throw the water at my face . its really !@#$%^&% urghhh ! and the most offensive is when they even not say sorry . I know that maybe they just want to have a fun but seriously ..? in front the public guys ! maybe I am too emotional but ... arghh just forget it
I try to think positively but when they just ignore what happen, yeah it really hurting me . especially when my other friends said that I behave like a childish when I sulking and crying . Ya Allah :( it's not like that guys . imagine if you guys at my shoes ? what did you guys feel ? happy ? excited ? I am very sure that you guys will really angry and feel like want to hit their head right . yeah same as me . I am very angry . but if I don't think that M and K are my bestie, surely I'll erase their name from my life but I don't want just because a small matter, we're fighting . no I don't ! I love our friendship :')
yeah I don't want you guys to think bad about me when I post something like this but seriously I don't know how to share this with you guys since you guys seems like blaming me for what already happened . I hope that M and me will gonna be fine . insyaAllah . one more thing, I don't want you guys be like me . if you guys not satisfied with something that I've done, just tell me . and
assalamualaikum :')
